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Miss(haps)

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 02:01:36 GMT

How many times? How many darn times?

I've been at http://vacantfaces.livejournal.com for quite some time and I guess I may want to go there for now. But before that, I wanna say that I just came back from X29 camp (ystd) and when I reached home (around 4.30) I slept immediately all the way till this morning 930am. Except that I woke up twice by my brother's super loud laughter. I guess this camp was quite different in the issues of my heart condition and people. (And I realise now that it's not up to me to decide if this was THE camp, but the camp's over anyway) There were alot of cup noodles and alot of cheers for every meal, but I lost my voice quite badly so I just did the actions to save the embarrassment(Kidding) we played pacman on the last night, now my legs are hurting like mad even walking kills. I hate to make empty promises but sometimes my words/current emotions got a better of what's gonna happen and I'll just go back and rack my brains on how not to break my promises. Other then that, I had alot of fun and I feel I don't need to care about whoever thinks, as long as I know what I'm doing and what my heart is really saying. Besides everything else that's happening in my life, I really do love Crescent cg and during this camp, I've been constantly reminded of how caring the CAREgroup is and how bonded we are by God. The days of Crescent cg were relived even though the people may be different, but the God element is still there. I always say I don't feel home when I went back to YHope but I guess that's just an outsider view and the camp really brought me closer back into the group. Sometimes I don't feel like I'm ready(all the time actl) but it seems like I'll never be ready at this rate, but God can move our hearts amen.

I promise to love and care for each and every one of you genuinely. (This isn't the promise which I feel I'll fail to keep, I really want to love all of you just as you are)

Wednesday Blues

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 11:58:05 GMT

Weekday Blues. My Paul Frank Pullover really depicts my life!

I love Friday the most out of the school week. Some aim in life at least. Sarah and I were hoody-gals and we were quite sick and I had red eyes. (Not sore eyes don't avoid me) Got two tests tmrw and I realised how darn hardworking Ernie is! We (Stef, Ernie,Sarah) went for consultation with Mr Ethan Tay today at CentrePoint Macs and all of us felt so damn accomplished! We have finally understood Pressure and he taught us some extra stuff for refraction. A good catch up and thanks Mr Tay for coming all the way for the consultation we did learn something new!

It's been cold these few days but sometimes I'm colder inside than you know.

God of my redemption

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 15:55:37 GMT

Hit me recently that God never ever gives up on me in any way. I mean it's the truth, stated in bible and all. But, God has been dropping words into my heart. So it just hits me really hard and all. In every struggle that I have, God will never ever stop revealing His plan to me through the Word and through His people. Like for example some you have some problems, and so you need to change. But being in the world of worldly influence, you just either don't feel like changing or you can't no matter what. (But the truth is, nothing is impossible with God, so I guess that's not a really valid reason why you're not changing.) But you realise during worship, sermon, altar call etc, what's being said/preached/etc applies to you greatly because you know you gotta change. And even when you do your QT, you read the Word of God and He tells you to change. (Supposed to obey the Word, but many a times, we struggle in this area right?) Last time, when this happened to me, I thought "Ok, this is irritating." But now, I realise that all these while, God didn't give up on me. So now, I will apply it into my life. & will you too?

Can't you feel the pouring rain?

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 10:03:08 GMT

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.

I've never enjoyed climbing up that much

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 10:52:09 GMT

I guess it's just finding joy in my sufferings. Not much of having joy, but finding it.

Tmrw's not gonna be a good day. There's History test and drama performance, which I have yet found my costume and memorised my lines. But tmrw is late recess day which means I need to bring food to school.

Can I find another way round this?

I don't grab an opportunity well enough

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 14:45:41 GMT

Even when it's down to nothing.

I won't let Joanne off for not waking me up even after the Chinese lesson ended. I've been dozing off during lessons nowadays and that's not good. I'll try hard not to this coming week, which is only 3 days. I really hope for another stay over this coming Friday agn! There may not be floorball on Friday, that means my brother can't go agn.

Can't wait for tmrw. Studying at BK agn. Already missing Hope people! Played Hei/Bai Zhi Ma (Some hand game) with Esther on the way home! At least I won 3 times! :D

& desperate for something.

Lord have Your way with us

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 10:51:51 GMT

Gun Bound
Get it?

Today caregroup was wonderful, as always, even though there was only 5 of us. We were challenged to be influencial Christians. We cannot choose how we die but we can choose how we live! This sentence hit me hard when Huiwei said it while sharing. Now I know the deeper meaning of why the moment you stop living for people far from God, the moment you are spiritually dead. Scary.

Just did some art and I think I can't shade at all. The moment I start shading is the moment I can say bye to my art piece. So I think I will leave it alone. Had a pretty okay day in school. PE was sucky, volleyball just isn't my thing. Fell asleep during Science and English! Surfed blogs during Computer Studies and paid attention during Math. Ordinary day. Then was caregroup which refreshed me!

Oral tmrw, Literature test tmrw, Weight trng tmrw, shepherding tmrw. Wow, let's see if I have another ordinary day tmrw.

Hey Mickey you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind!

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 13:02:07 GMT

Yes, that irritating song that sometimes get stuck in your head.

Study session agn at BK this morning at 11am. Made a pact to study every Sunday! But the thing is that I have tennis lessons in the middle (2-4pm) and that sucks. Reached there, studied a little of D&T before going to eat fried rice. Apparently, June Joanne Esther and I were talking about KindergarTen (HAHA, Esther, please learn how to pronounce agn). Then I went off for tennis lesson, reluctantly. It's true I dread tennis lessons. Plus I injured my heel! Dragging myself to tennis lesson, I thought about the hot weather and that makes me feel more like skipping it. But I didn't. Didn't play well at all today, purposely lose so that I get to rest. (Winner stay loser out system) You can say it's one of the longest tennis lessons I had to endure. First time in my life counting down the half-hours to the end. Just half hour into the lesson and I'm missing the people at BK. But I decided to leave my partner during doubles and rest. I said my heel was hurting so talked to my coach. He stopped his habit of biting him knuckles and I reminded him of it, now he says he feels like biting his knuckles agn and it's all my fault! Wasn't in a great mood but when I went back to BK I was normal agn! Did some Art (Huiwei! Better bring my art tmrw!) and studied the rest of D&T. Then had great talk with Shadow, Chou and Ultimate Chou. Maybe great isn't the right word, maybe interesting talk. Then June came over to slack. And I showed her my kindergarTen picture!!! Haha, she said I was very chubby. Great talk then she just went back.

Don't know why but I just typed out everything I did today. And that's funny, cos I usually think it's such a waste of time.

But, I feel as though it's not a sign anymore. It's more like routine, dude.

G Unite

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 15:01:49 GMT

Except we're not Gs. HAHA.

Injured my left heel during Praise&Worship in service today. Really painful I think it's blue black. Shadow non-stop poked it during Seed meeting.

Four musketeers stayover last night. Really great fellowship. Supposed to study (Oh man better study tmrw) but then ended up talking (G!!) and eating. Slept at about 3+ and woke up at about 9.30am. Went for Breakthrough meet at 11 then ate Yong Tau Fu at Starhub. Slept for 45mins before service. After Seed talked outside Maplestory agn.

Can't wait for studying tmrw. No actually I think more of fellowship cos I don't think D&T appeal to me. Same place at Tiong Bahru but this time I can't skip tennis lessons from 2-4. But I'll be back!

Nowadays I just don't have that excitement for tennis lessons anymore. Ever since I was promoted. Firstly, the lesson is 2 hours long. Secondly, I have no friends. (That sucks cos I used to have Buddyz to sing Madonna songs with and Yixuan to be touchy with. Tennis was fun with each other.) Thirdly, the trng is quite tough. (From 30 rallies we used to do, to 100 rallies. Haha, joke of the year) But yes, I love tennis though. But without tennis lesson, my burning passion will be gone, in just a matter of months. And that scares me.

No, never G.

Don't heck care

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 10:00:32 GMT

Bad news, really bad news.

No floorball tmrw.

My hopes of ending my week with a high note crashed. I was hoping to play floorball with my true skills this week without getting injured. Had weight-trng just now and I must say it's so waste my time, because everybody cuts queue and you end up doing nothing. At least that's what Huiwei and I did. Nothing.

Mr Lee, my new Literature teacher is really good, but he has a really huge vocabulary. And whenever he writes something cheem on the board he will also write "cheem". I think that's hilarious. But he's a really good teacher. All you need to do is look at my text, it's filled with written notes. Compare it to Curious Incident last semester.

And there's a Trojan virus circulating in the school wireless system. Thank God I'm someone who doesn't bring tablet to school. I will really be so mad if I need to reformat my tablet. And damn it, I need to uninstall my Photoshop from my tablet.... The school's too much. I spent a whole load of time searching for the CD and ok nevermind, can always ask Nadia. But, my brushes will be all gone and that sucks.

I think the problem lies between us. But Jesus died on the cross and destroys all barriers. And Jesus IS here. I've got to do something. I believe Jesus is alive and will step into this but I need to do my fair share of actions. Faith and deeds compliment each other.